Times they are a changin

Well seeing as how we have only a short 36 days to find a new house to live in as well as move all of our things into said house, I've been a bit preoccupied the past few weeks and have neglected my little space that I call my own. 

We currently rent the perfect house from my cousin and her husband.  It is perfectly located, just enough room for us and the kitties, I have a whole downstairs that is my "office" in which I do all my work during the day.  Its a separate space and I love the house completely.  We moved up here in December of 09 and had the agreement that we would live here so that they could get a house that was bigger, more suited for their needs.  We lived here for a year and a few months and due to the situation between them, personal issues, we are being evicted.  We have until June 30th to find a new house. 

This poses all kinds of issues.  I work from home, so we need to find a place that I can stand to be in 90% of my time.  I don't go into the office very often, so I spend most of my day downstairs right now in the finished basement which is my "office".  I am able to separate work from home for the most part and because I love the house, I don't mind being here all of the time.  Well, most of the time that is.  We also want to stay in the same general area.  We have family all around and don't want to move too far especially now that we are trying for a baby.  Also need to stay out of the city because of the increase in taxes.

We have found a few places and none of them panned out.  The first one was in the city, which means increase in taxes and rent.  I loved the house but it wasn't worth the money and hassle.  The second house I adored.  It was old with woodwork and it was redone.  But C would lose all his space.  He wouldn't have a basement or a garage and he would have no "man space". It was also only two bedrooms and the basement was unfinished so having a home office and a baby room/nursery wouldn't work.  So that won't work.  The third house was one that would have worked.  Had enough rooms and space.  Had a nice yard.  The drive way was very steep and the staining on the hardwood floors was half assed but it was still a house that we could have made a home.  Someone else got that one first.  There is one that is still not on the no way list yet, but it is a nice ranch-style house with a semi-finished basement but it is so very small.  SO SMALL.  I get anxiety thinking about moving all of our stuff in there. 

There aren't many options for what we want in this area.  We are expanding the search a bit to include other close by locations, and we have two appointments to see the houses in those areas this weekend.  One is very close to where we are now and I'm not sure how many rooms.  I did get to see the outside of the house when I was driving around with my in-laws on Monday after work and it looked nice but it is $150 a month more than we pay now and it doesn't look like the size justifies the hike in the pay.  We will have to see what the inside of the house looks like too to determine if we would pay that much and if it is big enough.  The other house is still close but not the immediate area we are in now.  It sounds gorgeous, completely redone, the person is moving for work and is looking for long term renters.  Its three bedrooms.  So we are keeping our fingers crossed for that.  There are also a few places my MIL knows that we may be able to rent, houses that are for sale by friends.  One looks so promising with the view that overlooks the river from the huge windows.  So we have some options, we just need something to pan out soon.

We are both so stressed.  We are obviously not pregnant at this time, but hope to be in the next upcoming months.  I need to relax on that front too and realize that I cannot make it happen but I need to do all I can to help it.  Things last night did not go well, C let some old demons take hold of him and after a long conversation this morning, I feel better.  I know that he is stressed out and that he is upset because we are having to move after finally getting things in order again.  He has a permanent great job, we had a nice home and then poof, we're unstable again.  He realizes that he was wrong and has apologized many times and said that it will not happen again. I believe him but he is on notice that this shit does not FLY in my house.  I will not be made a fool of and if he wants to act like he's a child, he'll be treated in the same manner.  I'll send him off to work with only enough money for a red bull and no ATM cards. 

Ridiculous.  So that's why I've been MIA.  I hope to be back this weekend with TTC updates lol and hopefully pictures of the new house!