I miss being able to stream out thoughts that are going through my head to a safe place. So I have decided that even with this blog being protected, I will use it as my outlet and maybe on day I’ll make it public again.
So many things going on lately. Had what we thought was a positive pregnancy finally only to start a week later. I need to relax and take a deep breath and realize that no matter how hard I will this to happen, it will happen when it is mean to happen and there is nothing I can do about it. I don’t know if I imagined all the symptoms or if maybe I was and then I wasn’t anymore. All I know is that this is harder than I ever thought it would be and I have a hard time with anything I cannot control and ooo boy, I cannot control this. All I can do is make the best of it.
That being said, I got a positive O test today and luckily have been getting it on with Hubs over the past few days. Its crazy to think that I used to swat his hands away and now when I ask, he’s all “do I have to?”. Not really, but its taken the “excitement” out of it since I tell him which days are most important. Oh well, he’ll get back to doing it for “fun” one day soon
In other crazy family news, got a call from my Mom last night that my grandmother isn’t doing well. She’s had some health problems recently and it looks like she’s taking a turn for the worse. And I don’t feel either way about it. I have no respect for the lady at all, which I feel bad about but I didn’t make it this way. She did. I’ll write more on that later. But Mom wants to go to Vegas. This is hard for us as its far and we aren’t keen on letting mom out of our sights let alone having her travel 3000 miles. I hope she is doing this for the right reasons and everything works out but I just have a bad feeling about this. Sigh. Happy positive thoughts and baby dust welcomed and appreciated.
So many things going on lately. Had what we thought was a positive pregnancy finally only to start a week later. I need to relax and take a deep breath and realize that no matter how hard I will this to happen, it will happen when it is mean to happen and there is nothing I can do about it. I don’t know if I imagined all the symptoms or if maybe I was and then I wasn’t anymore. All I know is that this is harder than I ever thought it would be and I have a hard time with anything I cannot control and ooo boy, I cannot control this. All I can do is make the best of it.
That being said, I got a positive O test today and luckily have been getting it on with Hubs over the past few days. Its crazy to think that I used to swat his hands away and now when I ask, he’s all “do I have to?”. Not really, but its taken the “excitement” out of it since I tell him which days are most important. Oh well, he’ll get back to doing it for “fun” one day soon
In other crazy family news, got a call from my Mom last night that my grandmother isn’t doing well. She’s had some health problems recently and it looks like she’s taking a turn for the worse. And I don’t feel either way about it. I have no respect for the lady at all, which I feel bad about but I didn’t make it this way. She did. I’ll write more on that later. But Mom wants to go to Vegas. This is hard for us as its far and we aren’t keen on letting mom out of our sights let alone having her travel 3000 miles. I hope she is doing this for the right reasons and everything works out but I just have a bad feeling about this. Sigh. Happy positive thoughts and baby dust welcomed and appreciated.
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